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Solani, Thank you so much for your detailed update - It really helps to catch us up with each other.

From what I've been delving into lately, I'm taking seriously all the claims that time as we know it, or think we know it, is being tampered with.  The Hopi did say things were about to get weird, and to just hold on and ride it out.  Someone on one of the podcasts I listened to this past weekend even made the startling comment that perhaps AI has figured out that our time is being messed with, and may be trying to set things right.  And on that note, am thinking that what happened to Bubba may have been an alternate timeline event that wasn't meant to happen, and perhaps this will be corrected at some point...

I wish I could lose weight as fast as you're doing it, but maybe by an easier path!  I hope the shrink is being gentle with your past, as all of your battle scars were hard-won.

My own sense of the owl episode is that, in spite of some horrific things currently being attributed to owls due to Bohemian Grove, I think they are magnificent and holy beings, and that you've been honored with a sacred visitation, and Someone with a capital "S" is letting you know that you are being lovingly watched over.

Would love to know if you ever come to a firm conclusion about the "father" character in your dream...hopefully you're just picking up on one of his alternate timelines!

Am also exhausted this time of the year, even with minimal exertion compared with tending the microfarm in summer.  Maybe the outdoor animals are teaching us to hibernate like they do?  Sort of like forming our chrysalis and settling in for the big changes ahead...

Well I totally envy you having such a wonderful daughter that you could talk 4 hours on the phone together, and I honor that precious connection at the same time  :)
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Solani!!!  It is good to hear from you, even though you have such unusual things to tell us.  And BTW I just discovered your September dream post and cannot believe I missed that one.

There is so much to say, but will try to not blab on too long.

Like you, I feel the "dream" of you in the vehicle passenger seat, looking at the unusual "man", and communicating with him, is a message to you about something in the future, including the possible meeting with a group or family type group, one of which may be a father or father figure.  Since you felt no fear, you are right to focus on "not trusting the father", and I'm betting when the right group of people including the "father" appears, or just "the father"  (wayward Catholic preist?) (or someone masquerading as a priest) appears, that you will automatically "know" not to trust "the father".

Missiing time.  It does sound like you have a serious case of missing time.  In September I also experienced missing time, but not four hours.  I was traveling on the highway system, and plan ASAP to revisit the path and see if something looks familiar, and then am planning to be hypnotized to find out what happened during the missing time.  Your description of your missing time suggests you were "transported" somewhere for a while.

You probably know how serious lack of sleep can be.  I'm not lecturing you, but from your description, you did go through, maybe still are, a period of near sleeplessness, and that can create havoc in your mind, emotions, and general well being.

One issue that keeps reariing its head is your thyroid.  Has it been a while since you have had thyroid tests done?  Not just T3, T4, and TSH, but some of those others such as anti-thyroglobulin.  There are several others IIRC, as thyroid testing is getting more complex as there are so many thyroid anomalies these days.  That is one thing I would pursue--get your thyroid health evaluated.

And last but not least, thyroid imbalance and lack of sleep often go together.  How I wish I had time to chat with you on the phone, but am doctoring on a sick animal right now on a daily basis, and barely have time to breathe.   I/we wish you well and know you will make it through this difficult time.  After all, you're receiving warning "dreams" from a most likely benevolent source.  Please keep us posted.
 

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Solani, P.S.

Your experience with the owl is truly amazing, and no doubt has serious meaning.  Do you feel the owl was mentally sending you the wisdom you might need when you encouinter "the father" you are not to trust?

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Another P.S. for Solani:

What is the source of your drinking water?  Do you know if it's fluoridated?  If fluoridated, the fluoride could be interfering with any iodine/iodide your thyroid needs, 

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Anyhow… I’ve been having really strange dreams, even stranger than what’s “normal” for me I mean…

Solani,  are you perhaps located in one of the current ascension-energy portals?  As I vaguely remember, one is in Canada.  SW, I think.

Hi Jim,
I'm not sure. Will have to see if I can find it anywhere online. I'm not really located what I'd consider being south but, definitely on the western/ish side of BC about a 6 hour drive down to Vancouver/the US border. Although yeah, I'd have to say, more south than north...

All I know for now, is that my life, emotions, relationships to humans... basically everything is totally out of wack, to the point where I'm seriously starting to question my sanity, or what's left of it, on a more or less daily basis. Now, I know I'm not quite right in the head, compared to "human
norm" but... This is even a big far out of the norm even for me and I'm normally used to seeing, hearing, feeling and sensing much (most) of what others don't...

Add my changing metabolism, how my body/system is behaving, and that on top of my mind rapidly going in so many different directions simultaneously, I'm about ready to have myself committed some days. Am truly grateful that I'm living far away from people, as just going in to town for a quick shop of necessities, doc appointment, lets not even talk about doing a whole day once a month shopping session... Back home again, I'm so tired, drained and over exposed to emotions that aren't mine, that all I want to do is darken my bedroom, pull the covers up over my head and SLEEP, just to turn the world off or, at least my mind for awhile...

Will have to see if I can find some portal connection somewhere...
//Solani

Solani, it is so good to see your post here.
Wishing you all the Best,
Many Blessings,
- Barb T.

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Anyhow… I’ve been having really strange dreams, even stranger than what’s “normal” for me I mean…

Solani,  are you perhaps located in one of the current ascension-energy portals?  As I vaguely remember, one is in Canada.  SW, I think.

Hi Jim,
I'm not sure. Will have to see if I can find it anywhere online. I'm not really located what I'd consider being south but, definitely on the western/ish side of BC about a 6 hour drive down to Vancouver/the US border. Although yeah, I'd have to say, more south than north...

All I know for now, is that my life, emotions, relationships to humans... basically everything is totally out of wack, to the point where I'm seriously starting to question my sanity, or what's left of it, on a more or less daily basis. Now, I know I'm not quite right in the head, compared to "human
norm" but... This is even a big far out of the norm even for me and I'm normally used to seeing, hearing, feeling and sensing much (most) of what others don't...

Add my changing metabolism, how my body/system is behaving, and that on top of my mind rapidly going in so many different directions simultaneously, I'm about ready to have myself committed some days. Am truly grateful that I'm living far away from people, as just going in to town for a quick shop of necessities, doc appointment, lets not even talk about doing a whole day once a month shopping session... Back home again, I'm so tired, drained and over exposed to emotions that aren't mine, that all I want to do is darken my bedroom, pull the covers up over my head and SLEEP, just to turn the world off or, at least my mind for awhile...

Will have to see if I can find some portal connection somewhere...
//Solani

Hi again, just a quick reply, more to follow, all i want to say is, try hard to find your balance and trust yourself. Try to avoid the shrinks and avoid committing yourself.
Maybe it is a blessing for now you are not near people on a daily basis.
Do all you can to eat well, stay warm, rest more than usual, walk in your area, safe.
Maybe there is something to the ascension portal idea...

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If you are an Empath, that is not easy... find ways to shut it out if you possibly can...
I have experienced that but to a lesser degree. (I am not saying I am an Empath, son and I have had clairvoyance, clairaudio and connection with spirits who have passed, and possibly people still alive... Both my son and I would tune into conversations, things going on... almost at times like radio playing through our heads. Not sure how but we both managed to tune it out most of the time...

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Another P.S. for Solani:

What is the source of your drinking water?  Do you know if it's fluoridated?  If fluoridated, the fluoride could be interfering with any iodine/iodide your thyroid needs,

good question... also any possible contamination of water and foods.

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Re: My weird world, dreams, missing time and probably way to much..
« Reply #143 on: December 04, 2019, 10:40:48 PM »
I’m sorry, I have yet again been MIA…  :'( I’ve been in and out of the hospital, running all sorts of blood tests, EEG, EKG... multiple doctors visits etc. Loosing weight way to fast... Not skin and bones yet but, apparently working on it... Heck, even had to go see a shrink…  :o Not my favorite type of human… I already knew most of my marbles were/are scrambled without any hope of de-scrambling them and quite frankly, at this point in my life, I wouldn’t know how to handle an unscrambled brain… We’re kind of used to each other at this stage, my old brain and me… (yeah, tongue in cheek)

Anyhow… I’ve been having really strange dreams, even stranger than what’s “normal” for me I mean…

I wrote about the "dream" I had a few months ago, about the not quite human man that I all of a sudden found myself sitting next to in the front seat of a car which I didn’t recognize or, had any idea how I got into it, as my dream up until the moment I found myself sitting in the car was a totally different dream and not related in any way shape or form. That dream is still with me, to the point where, I don't think there's been one day after that night/dream where I haven't thought about it, at least once a day so... My take is that it is still an ongoing warning...

I THINK I'm finally beginning to understand his bizarre warning “Don’t trust the father” and yes Barb, Ilinda and R.R. know who I'm referring too... *deep sigh* I'm way to old for this sh*t!

Anyhow... As if that wasn't strange enough, I don't know if I'm rapidly loosing my mind or, what's left of it... (what else is new?) or??? About 2 weeks ago I was sitting here in front of my computer, watching a movie that I was hoping would put me to sleep. It was around 1 AM'ish and I figured I'd go to bed and see if I could possibly fall asleep. Sleeping hasn't been something that has been easy these past few months. On the other hand, I've been that way all my life off and on and the same goes for my kids, especially my daughter. I'll usually talk to her for hours on the phone (I'm talking about serious 4 hour long conversations, where the battery in the phone dies and I have to go get the other handset, thankfully I have an unlimited international plan) and around 5AM her time, she'll say that she'd probably better go to bed and get some sleep... Anyhow, I'm getting sidetracked... (my brain is going in so many directions at the same time, I have a hard time keeping up...)

I turned my computer off, walked out to the kitchen, made sure the cats had both water and food and the dogs water bowl was full. Next, bathroom and all that, that entails getting ready for bed and straight from there to my bed. That took at the most 15 minutes from turning the computer off, kitchen, bathroom and back to my bedroom. I sit down on the side of my bed, give my tiny porcelain cat (Bubba) that's sitting on my nightstand a goodnight pat on the head, telling him I miss him and love him, lay down, pull my covers up and turn to switch the light on my nightstand off and glance at the digital clock and it says 5:24AM... That made me get up (jump) out of bed and check the other clocks throughout the house, thinking that one was not quite right... Nope, all of the clocks displayed the same/similar time. I even turned my computer back on to check the time setting on it, thinking that perhaps I.... I dunno...?? No, it also was the same as the rest of the clocks....

I sat back down on the side of my bed and felt totally weirded out... Where did those 4 hours go from being in the kitchen/bathroom, walking the short distance in the hallway to my bedroom and getting into bed?? I don't know and it really bothers me. I know I've been out of body many times previously but, I REMEMBER those or, at least think I remember most of them, this one is just blank... Just 4 hours missing... And yes, I did finally manage to go to sleep and get at least two hours, before I had to get up and take my dog out...

Now to the really freakish thing that happened the day after... I was on the phone talking to my daughter again, we talk on the phone at least 3 - 4 times a week. It's 9 hour time difference between here and Sweden so, it's middle of the day here and evening/night in Sweden. I'm in my bedroom, sitting in front of my computer but sitting sideways with my legs propped up on the foot of the bed. I see out of the corner of my eye movement outside the big windows in the front room. I wasn't looking straight at the windows but whatever moved out there was big enough for me to see in my peripheral vision... I got up to check what it was, since my dog wasn't barking. Normally, she'll bark at everything from low flying satellites to farting squirrels... No, she's just laying on the couch, looking at me as I walk past her on my way to the window...

Looking outside, I see a HUGE Great Gray Owl, sitting perhaps 30 feet from the house on a piece of old plowing equipment. He was just sitting there, looking back at me. All the time I'm talking to my daughter, telling her what I'm seeing outside my front windows, she's online searching for information on what seeing owls symbolize... The owl is just sitting there, sometimes looking straight forward for a few seconds but kept turning his head towards me and it felt as if he was looking me straight in the eyes. This goes on for probably a good 10 minutes and no, he wasn't looking at the ground for a potential mouse meal. He never looked down once. Suddenly he lifts his BIG wings and takes flight and perches on a branch on the crab apple tree right outside of the window that I'm standing in front of looking at him. He's sitting so he is facing the right of me in direction of one of the fields. He does the same thing, keeps turning his head and is looking me straight in the eyes, just a few feet from me. Now, my dog saw him too and started barking her brains out but, he didn't care. He took one look at her and didn't look back at her again, just kept staring at me. Another 5 - 10 minutes later, he lifted off again and flew about 50 feet to where an old tractor is parked next to the shop and landed on the roof of it. He sits there with his back to me but still has his head turned in my direction. Another 10 minutes perhaps he flies off again, this time down to the middle of the field and landed on a fence post. I couldn't see his eyes anymore but, he still kept turning his head back towards me. Dang! those things can totally turn their heads backwards... That in itself looks freaky... Anyhow, he finally took off and flew out of sight and I haven't seen him again.

What really got to me was that, just a few nights before, I had watched the movie "The 4th Kind", about Alien abductions (true story) in Nome Alaska. I watched it because I had watched one of Rex's (Leak Project) YouTube videos, where he was talking about it, as well as another YouTuber, can't remember who it was by but... If you haven't seen it, WATCH IT.... and you'll fully understand why this owl freaked me out. Coincidences??? I don't believe in coincidences... At least not most of the time. I believe in synchronicities... Those have been way more prevalent in my life than coincidences...

\\ Solani



Solani, I hope you won't mind my short replies, responding to different parts of your posts.
Before you mentioned seeing The Fourth Kind, I thought of that.
I feel the Fourth Kind was unecessarily disturbing and some of the content strongly suggests aliens doing violent things... It is sort of an evil movie... I would try to take your attention off of it.
Of course alien civilizations visiting in the past probably did violent acts and it could happen again, (Reference, Marshall's Being) that said, I feel the ones visiting here at the present time are not actually trying to harm us... I honestly do feel if you are chosen to be visited it is because of some excellent physical or mental ability and who knows maybe some of us have a connection genetically to some off world-ers. A lot of Indigos report having possible or definite ET experiences.

I hope this will help you but it has helped me: Allow your self to feel some degree of acceptance, like, "it is out of my hands whatever they will do they will do and I won't remember and I will be all right..." I personally had to tell myself that a few times.

Just a quick aside, a story. Living with my five children on our land up in the woods near Sequim, Washington in the early 1980s. I walked in the twilight by myself from our little trailer up a short hill to our gravel road on our cul de sac. From there a short hike to the neighbor's well, they told me to help myself to water so I did.  Was (not afraid at all). As soon as i got up to the top of the hill on the cul de sac, just a few feet onto the road, I felt a vibration energy surrounding my whole body. There was no possible "normal explanation" for this phenomenon. My exact thought: "It is out of my hands whatever they will do they will do and I won't remember and I will be all right..." Not sure how much time went by it was twilight and it would stay that way awhile up there. Not dark. I was suddenly aware no vibration on me and continuing to walk as if nothing had happened. I have only told a couple people about this. Might have posted it along with a few other stories of mine in the Extraterrestrial Topics. I feel I have been visited a few times. Nothing I can do about it... it seems now I am older and past child bearing age they are not as interested in me, but sometimes I feel they still monitor me...

I hope this helps, just trust, say a little prayer, go back to sleep...

Four of my five children and myself have experienced ET things and shared them among ourselves. Hollywood, WA, and San Diego CA area.
My son and I both have possible "missing time" and both had bright colored lights in our face which woke us up. He was in Hollywood, I was in the Inland empire area about an hour away. Happened to both of us, the lights in the face, within the same 2 week time period.  Well there is more for another post, I may have posted it all in the ET Topics... The main point is, I know is is not easy, but that could be it. I do not think they will harm you, let us hope they might even want to help.

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Re: My weird world, dreams, missing time and probably way to much..
« Reply #144 on: December 04, 2019, 11:10:25 PM »
I’m sorry, I have yet again been MIA…  :'( I’ve been in and out of the hospital, running all sorts of blood tests, EEG, EKG... multiple doctors visits etc. Loosing weight way to fast... Not skin and bones yet but, apparently working on it... Heck, even had to go see a shrink…  :o Not my favorite type of human… I already knew most of my marbles were/are scrambled without any hope of de-scrambling them and quite frankly, at this point in my life, I wouldn’t know how to handle an unscrambled brain… We’re kind of used to each other at this stage, my old brain and me… (yeah, tongue in cheek)

Anyhow… I’ve been having really strange dreams, even stranger than what’s “normal” for me I mean…
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Anyhow... Other than that, I guess I'm still alive and kicking. Not feeling to great but... I know why I'm loosing weight, I can't eat, I don't get hungry. I have no hunger feelings whatsoever and forcing myself to eat, quite frankly repulses me. I do however force myself to eat at least once a day, even if I am fully aware that the amount I'm able to eat, is way to little. My blood tests come back good, apart from the doc telling me that my cholesterol levels were to high and that I needed to cut down on animal fats, milk etc. etc. etc... I asked him, WHAT fat???
He of course prescribed Statins which he told me that I needed to take the rest of my life, or I'd likely have a heart attack and die. I so wanted to tell him that, well, I gotta die from something and I think I'd prefer a heart attack vs. various other ways of dying... However, I didn't argue with him, just took the prescription and kept my mouth shut... Nope, not going to take that poison...  I've bought red rice yeast capsules and extra garlic and we'll see how that works... I have seriously upped my intake of vitamins, minerals and other herbal capsules/tablets, since I am aware that I need to keep those levels up in my system and if I'm not eating...
\\ Solani
Solani, RE some of the symptoms you have described, please consider dropping the red yeast rice. Questions: Are you taking it yet? If so, for how long?)
Just lately I've been researching natural substances which lower cholesterol and bought a formula. I had read that although red yeast rice is listed as a cholesterol lowering food it can have same bad effects as actual statin drugs!! Memory loss and all sorts of physical and mental symptoms and memory loss are possible... So, what I bought has no red yeast rice.
I just now read it can even cause rhabdomyolosis. - Barb T.
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Because red yeast rice extract contains lovastatin, it can cause the same side effects as chemically created statins. These side effects include higher than normal liver function test results and muscle weakness (myopathy). ... It is not recommended to take red yeast rice extract and prescription statins together.

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Solani, Thank you so much for your detailed update - It really helps to catch us up with each other.

Thank you, I should have done it much sooner but, it's been way to much going on both within and without. Not sure when it will "go back to normal", whatever normal is... Having a big health scare today. Thought I'd have to call an ambulance, not that one would have been able to get out here due to all the snow that has been dumped on us the past 2 days. Feeling better now this evening but, if nothing else, it gave me a WAKE UP CALL... Will write more about it in PM to you girls.

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From what I've been delving into lately, I'm taking seriously all the claims that time as we know it, or think we know it, is being tampered with.  The Hopi did say things were about to get weird, and to just hold on and ride it out.  Someone on one of the podcasts I listened to this past weekend even made the startling comment that perhaps AI has figured out that our time is being messed with, and may be trying to set things right.  And on that note, am thinking that what happened to Bubba may have been an alternate timeline event that wasn't meant to happen, and perhaps this will be corrected at some point...

Yes, I also feel and have felt for quite a few years now, that our timelines are being messed with big time. Everything feels totally off and doesn't make sense, doesn't feel "right", as if I'm in someone else's timeline and all I want is to get back to my own timeline. This whole crazy world just doesn't feel right or familiar. My daughter Lisah feels the same way and is experiencing things much similar to what I am. Also having more anxiety, feelings of not belonging so, I guess if what we are both feeling is correct, we at least landed in the same timeline. We both remember things the same but, differently than other people do. It's just strange.

Yes, my baby kitten Bubba could very well have been a hick-up in time lines. The grieving I've been doing and feeling for that little ball of fur, just doesn't make sense, considering I'd only had him for about a month and the last week of his life was at the vet clinic. I've grieved for my previous cats as well as my dogs but, the hurt and loss I've been feeling after loosing him, is what I have felt for a few of my previous pets when they've crossed over, when they were old and been with me for many many years.

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I wish I could lose weight as fast as you're doing it, but maybe by an easier path!

I hear you.. I don't mind loosing the weight but... loosing 30+ lbs in less than 3 months is pushing it a bit... Oh well, at least now I know what it will feel like if we're not able to get enough food in us after PX or SHTF... Yeah, bad joke but, never the less true. I at least know now where my body's limit for what it can take and can't take is.... Now, I NEED to do something about it or....

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I hope the shrink is being gentle with your past, as all of your battle scars were hard-won.

Honestly, he was a total a$$hole... Wrong time for me to go see a shrink, Bubba had just died a few days prior, I had just had to have all my upper teeth pulled due to a serious infection and was still hurting from the extractions plus feeling like an old toothless bat... and Dan on top of that.... Not a good time to have a meeting with a shrink, that thought he was king sh*t, knew it all, told me to shut up when I was trying to tell him what was going on in my life and hadn't even taken the time to read through the notes the nurse that I'd spent an hour with before meeting him had taken down... I took his crap for about 2 minutes before my "alter warrior" took over and kept "our" mouth shut, arms crossed over chest, staring him straight in his eyes and waited for him to stop talking. Asked him then very coldly, if I had PERMISSION to speak... Didn't tell him anything when he asked. Just told him to read the notes his intake nurse, or whatever she was called had written down. Something he should have done BEFORE seeing a new patient/client... Did get him to write a note/prescription that I need my dog as an emotional support animal. Something he'd never heard of before... Go figure!? While he was writing it I told him that it needed to state that I have PTSD. He looks up at me and says in a very snooty way, "And WHERE did you get that from?" Just coldly informed him that it could have something to do with being isolated, sexually, physically and mentally abused from infancy up to about 4 and a half yrs. old and further... Something he would have known if he had read the notes the nurse had written while talking to me for the better part of an hour... He didn't say anything after that. Only told me that the secretary would type it out, gave me a prescription for 400mg Sertralin as a daily dose... (NO, I don't eat that sh*t!) Also told me that I needed to make follow up appointment with him for 2 months later. I just took the paperwork and walked out. Told the secretary on my way out that there was no rush writing the note I need for my emotional support dog, I could pick it up next time I was in town and left.... Got a phone call from them a few days later telling me that my doctors note for my dog was ready to be picked up and also got a date for the follow up appointment... I didn't comment on it since I  wanted to have that doctors note for Nova in my hands first. Didn't want to risk not getting it as that is very important for me, if I fly back to Sweden, I need it or, she won't be able to fly with me and I need her too so, I'm not faking it...

Anyhow, a few days before the second appointment I was going to have with this shrink I got a reminder call from his office and I really laid into them in regard to this shrink, his behavior and how badly he'd treated me and told them that there was no way in hell that I'd sit in the same room with him without having a second female in there with me. Told them that I'd been told that t I had the right to have a nurse in the room with me and it was up to them to arrange it.... I hung up... About an hour later I get another call from the shrinks office, this time it was a woman that was higher up the "food chain", wondering what had happened/gone wrong during my session with the shrink... I told her exactly what had happened, how he had treated me and that no way in any scenario would I subject myself to his vile treatment again. Told her that I also have a 4 yr. degree in psychology which is geared mainly towards the long term effects of early childhood abuse and that this doctor must have got his degree from a box of cornflakes... Told her that I knew my rights and that I wouldn't see him again if I didn't have someone else in the room. Not so much for security for myself, more for having a witness to how he behaved. Plus, it would most likely keep me from jumping over the table and ripping his throat out... Last thing I want is to get locked up somewhere.... NOPE.... (didn't say that last part out loud but know myself well enough to know, that if I reach the point of where I feel like a cornered animal, I will react as such) I could hear that she was writing everything down that I was saying and she then gave me the phone number to the women's center in town, so I could call them and one of their staff would come with me. OK, I can do that... Called them and a very sweet woman was appointed to come with me. Sitting talking with her in the waiting room a few minutes before my appointment, she told me that this was not the first time this doctor had complaints... Why am I not surprised? Anyhow, meet the shrink in front of the secretary's desk, he put his hand out to shake mine and I just looked at him and put my hands behind my back.... This meeting was totally different from the first one. His demeanor towards me was totally different and it was almost as if he didn't want to look me in the eyes.... He didn't yell at me or tell me to shut up, he did however tell the woman that was with me to shut up... *sigh* She just squeezed my hand under the table and didn't say anything other than that she was there to help me and also help me explain things... NO, I will NOT be going back...

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My own sense of the owl episode is that, in spite of some horrific things currently being attributed to owls due to Bohemian Grove, I think they are magnificent and holy beings, and that you've been honored with a sacred visitation, and Someone with a capital "S" is letting you know that you are being lovingly watched over.

Yes, I agree. I love owls. They are very powerful animals both spiritually and otherwise. I don't care much for what's being said about them in regard to the Bohemian Grove etc. Same as it  doesn't change how I view many of our ancient symbols, that have now been deemed to be evil, have totally different meaning etc. What people think about things, is not the same way as I think about them and always have. Heck, now-days, you can't take 2 steps into town and around people without feeling that you need to watch your words so you don't step on anyone's toes.... I've never been PC and never will be. If someone wants me to address them by a certain gender, please wear a badge that TELLS me what the hell you are and I'll address you accordingly. If not, I'll take at face value what I think you are... Don't like it? Your problem, not mine. If it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, it's most likely a freakin duck! If not, make sure you have a label/note on you somewhere that says what you are... Yes, that's something that really irritates me and something I feel has been blown way out of proportion...

But yes, back to owls... LOL I do believe that I was being sent a message somehow. Perhaps I just couldn't hear it because I was on the phone with my daughter the whole time and I was distracted?? It was just freaky since I'd recently watched the movie "The Forth Kind", where owls were what all of the abductees had seen prior and after they'd been abducted. Add to that the missing 4 hours I had... Coincidence? perhaps but.... how often do you have a big wild owl just sitting a few feet away from you, staring you straight in the eyes through the window, that doesn't even budge when Nova saw it and was jumping and barking her brains out? Not very often in my experience...

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Would love to know if you ever come to a firm conclusion about the "father" character in your dream...hopefully you're just picking up on one of his alternate timelines!

Yup, same here. I really want to know what he meant but... However, I have seen him one more time after "the car" incident and this time I was awake. It was seconds after I had crossed over my old friends wife. The man that I was caregiver for here in the house before he went to live in a care facility. His wife was still here... I'd known the whole time I was taking care of him that she was here and would talk to her much the same as I would do with Dan's first wife up at his farm. After I'd moved in here, can't remember how long I'd been living here but it was after the "car dream". I sat in her hubby's old recliner and was talking with her. Not just in thought but out loud. Heck, not like anyone is out here that can hear or care about if I'm talking to myself... lol I asked her why she was still here and hadn't crossed over to be with her loved ones. She told me that she'd stayed to keep an eye on her husband. I asked her why she didn't go with him when he went to the care home and she replied that she didn't know how to go about that. I told her that I could try to help her if she wanted to join him but also asked her to consider her own happiness and that she had family on the other side that were waiting and longing for her. She made a slight joke about me wanting to get rid of her and I just smiled and told her that no, I don't want to get rid of you, you're more than welcome to stay, this is your home not mine, even if I'm living here for awhile... Told her it was her choice and that I could open a portal and we could see who came through and if she wanted to go with them, it was her choice. So, I did it "by the book" this time around and "created/envisioned" the whole glittering white staircase coming down through the ceiling and it took on a "life of it's own" after that. 3 light beings came down the stairs, not what I'd call angels since I didn't see any wings, just white and shiny. Behind them a man and a woman came halfway down the stairs and I understood, they were her parents. She ran quickly up the stairs to meet them and didn't even look back, just walked on up with them. Next thing that happened right after she had left, was that 2 light beings started walking down the stairs and towards me where I was sitting in the recliner, tears streaming down my cheeks. When they'd reached the floor, the "man" from the car "materialized" in front of them and walked up to me. He didn't say or think a word to me, just leaned forward and kissed my forehead. 2 of the light beings did the same. Not a word, just a slight smile and a kiss on the forehead... Then poof, gone. I know they weren't here on the physical plane and that what I was seeing was being seen by my inner sight but still very real since I have no control over what I'm seeing or can "direct the inner movie" in any way, I have no idea who this "man" is but, I don't feel that he means me any harm. I just wish he wouldn't be so darn cryptic! Just TELL me... All I hear in response is, you'll know when you need to know.... *grrrr*

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Am also exhausted this time of the year, even with minimal exertion compared with tending the microfarm in summer.  Maybe the outdoor animals are teaching us to hibernate like they do?  Sort of like forming our chrysalis and settling in for the big changes ahead...

Well I totally envy you having such a wonderful daughter that you could talk 4 hours on the phone together, and I honor that precious connection at the same time  :)

Yes, Lisah is one of a kind. I have no idea how I would have made it through these past months and even years, if it hadn't been for her...

Much Love  :-*
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Also having more anxiety, feelings of not belonging so, I guess if what we are both feeling is correct, we at least landed in the same timeline.

Absolutely.  That's the one most important prayer that I pray every single day, that our family / soul group will not be separated by any artificial or intrusive means.

Our pets do take a piece of us with them when they go, don't they?  My sense is that when we all reach 5D, our furry friends who have passed may begin materializing again, though in a more ascended state than 3D.  In fact, maybe our pets, being so pure and innocent, may actually pass to a higher dimension than 5D?  If they do ascend in tandem with us though, we'll have a good many of them between the two of us when we get there!  :)

A psychologist might readily be discerned as belonging to one of two categories: either a camouflaged narcissist gravitating toward the "helping" professions who needs to be weeded out before doing more harm than good, or a genuine healer who probably is more of a listener than a talker.  The fact that yours talked "at" you rather than "with" you would seem to be indicative of which camp he falls into, if you know what I mean.  Am thinking that you might benefit more from an empath than a psychologist - someone who doesn't seek a fee for services or write a diagnosis onto your permanent file to be uploaded into a shared database.

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this doctor must have got his degree from a box of cornflakes

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now-days, you can't take 2 steps into town and around people without feeling that you need to watch your words so you don't step on anyone's toes....

I can relate to that.  There's a great book about narcissists / psychopaths, who seem to be running around everywhere these days, titled Stop Walking on Eggshells.  I'm not a tarot practitioner, but this glyph has stuck with me and seems applicable to the present era:


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I've never been PC and never will be.

The mark of ascending ones, IMHO.  One has to be able to act a slick role in order to be PC, and Truthers would need to try really, really hard to fake their way through.  A great trait that can get us into a world of trouble!  ::)

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...how often do you have a big wild owl just sitting a few feet away from you, staring you straight in the eyes through the window, that doesn't even budge...

I play that game with my cats all the time - you know, the one in which whoever looks away first is the weakling.  ;)

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He didn't say or think a word to me, just leaned forward and kissed my forehead. 2 of the light beings did the same.

That does seem to cast a whole new light on things...

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I just wish he wouldn't be so darn cryptic! Just TELL me... All I hear in response is, you'll know when you need to know....

Sounds like a plot-twist is afoot... :)

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Solani!!!  It is good to hear from you, even though you have such unusual things to tell us.  And BTW I just discovered your September dream post and cannot believe I missed that one.

Yes, that was a very intense dream/vision. One of the "top 10", that was so clear and obvious that it wasn't "just a dream" and has stuck with me on a daily basis. My regular dreams, even if they are very vivid and in full color, are more what I chalk up to brain static and releasing whatever tensions etc. that's been going on throughout the day or longer. Those dreams don't stay with me for more than a few minutes before they start fading away. The ones I sit up and take serious notice of, are the ones that just don't fit in somehow in whatever else I'm dreaming and they will not fade away but stay with me in full detail. Much the same as if you'd experienced something in real life.

Don't get me wrong, I love my weird and wacky brain static dreams, same with my daughters dreams. We could both put Spielberg to shame when it comes to vivid dreams that would make a box selling movie.

We share many dreams, especially one reoccurring dream where we are walking through a house. A house that doesn't look all that big on the outside but has no limits once you are inside. Rooms that lead to other rooms, crawlspaces that lead to huge almost like ballrooms of old. winding stairways, up and down, crisscross forever changing. Similar to Hogwarts if you get my meaning. It's forever changing. You can open a door, look inside, close the door and open it again and the room inside is different... We both sense that we are looking for something within this house, something important, like a document or manuscript or??? The house is totally void of any other life or spirits, basically no furniture and some parts such as the attic in some rooms the ceiling/roof is falling in. I get the feeling that this is a house that somehow contains our various incarnations throughout time and beyond. Like your inner soul memories made into a house and many many rooms, hallways, crawlspaces. The basement is the only really creepy part of the house. It's dark, dank and musty and feels like you're not alone down there. Been down there a few times but, feel a resistance to venture to deep into it. Could be something letting us know that we need to keep away from that part or, it could be a portal down there to some even deeper levels that we might not be equipped to deal with or, just something not wanting us to find whatever we're looking for... Many options. We've both decided that next time we find ourselves down in the basement, we're not going to back down and turn back, we're going for whatever is down there...


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There is so much to say, but will try to not blab on too long.

Like you, I feel the "dream" of you in the vehicle passenger seat, looking at the unusual "man", and communicating with him, is a message to you about something in the future, including the possible meeting with a group or family type group, one of which may be a father or father figure.  Since you felt no fear, you are right to focus on "not trusting the father", and I'm betting when the right group of people including the "father" appears, or just "the father"  (wayward Catholic preist?) (or someone masquerading as a priest) appears, that you will automatically "know" not to trust "the father".

That's the problem I'm having. The words: "The Father", can be interpreted in so many different ways, depending on who says it and what language and culture they come from. The father can refer to anything from an older man, a man of the cloth, a leader... The list goes on. I know that English isn't this mans original language, both due to his grammar as in "Do not trust the father", as opposed to "Don't trust the father", as well as the word father itself and not a more descriptive word for whoever I am to be wary of. Add to that when he first started talking/thinking to me, it was in a totally different language and he spoke for much longer time than just saying, "do not trust the father". When in "my dream" I told him in English, "I don't understand you", he was quiet for a few seconds, as if he had to think about how to say it in English and I got the much shortened version being only "Do not trust the father".

I wasn't at any point afraid of him or, the 2 other beings that were in the back seat. It's not the first time I've found myself in "strange places among strange looking beings so, it felt natural even if a bit strange, since I've never come across a being that looks quite like he does. I never turned around to look at those that were in the back seat, I just KNEW they were there. They never said or thought a word to me, they were just quiet and motionless the whole time. The vision didn't last for very long. Hard to describe time in a dream/vision but considering the time it would take to say what he said and me being able to catch as much information about my surroundings in the car and what he looked like in detail, it couldn't have lasted for more than a few minutes, 5 at most, unless I'm not supposed to remember parts of it. Regardless, I woke up instantly after he'd given me the warning/dream/vision and didn't go back to whatever I was dreaming prior to finding my butt parked in the front seat of the car. It felt as if we were in a parking lot somewhere. I have no idea what type of car it was, other than that it looked like it would belong in this world, dashboard, seats, steering wheel, windows, two front seats next to each other, could have been a 2 door car or 4 door, since I never looked behind me. I can say for sure that it was not an SUV or larger vehicle as it was to close to the ground and not elevated such as an SUV is etc. I did get the impression that it was an older model car due to that I didn't see any modern electronics or such in it... Oh well...

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Missing time.  It does sound like you have a serious case of missing time.  In September I also experienced missing time, but not four hours.  I was traveling on the highway system, and plan ASAP to revisit the path and see if something looks familiar, and then am planning to be hypnotized to find out what happened during the missing time.  Your description of your missing time suggests you were "transported" somewhere for a while.

Yes, 4 hours feel like a long time to be missing time but, then there have been others that have missed whole days, weeks and more. Add to that, my dog Nova didn't behave in any strange way when I'd "returned" or was walking to my bed from the bathroom. But then, I do shut the door when I'm doing my nightly routine before going to bed, since I don't want the kittens going crazy and knocking my stuff down for the care of these freakin plastic fake teeth... LOL So, Nova would most likely have thought that I was still in the bathroom doing my thing. I have wracked my brain over and over about these 4 hours. I've even thought that maybe I'd gotten caught up in the movies I was watching and not registered how late/early it was but. No, I'm sure it was around 1AM...

Yes, I agree with you, go back and retrace your steps or your driving and see if you recognize anything. It could help with the "off feeling" of knowing that you are missing time. A regression hypnosis could also be helpful and very interesting. I wish I could be hypnotized. Have tried it several times over the years with various therapists, since I want to know more about what happened to me when I was a child. I want to know if my memories are real, or just something that I've brought into being. Even if many relatives that I've managed to find over the years have confirmed much of what I remember... But, no one has been able to put me under. It's as if I have a block or WALL firmly planted within my psyche and it won't let anyone through, even if it would be to hypnotize me for something non essential that happened the day before and I already know about. It just doesn't work. Could be that I don't trust anyone and the walls that are around my inner self I've built but... 

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You probably know how serious lack of sleep can be.  I'm not lecturing you, but from your description, you did go through, maybe still are, a period of near sleeplessness, and that can create havoc in your mind, emotions, and general well being.

Yes, lack of sleep can really mess with your mind and perception of what you feel is real...

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One issue that keeps reariing its head is your thyroid.  Has it been a while since you have had thyroid tests done?  Not just T3, T4, and TSH, but some of those others such as anti-thyroglobulin.  There are several others IIRC, as thyroid testing is getting more complex as there are so many thyroid anomalies these days.  That is one thing I would pursue--get your thyroid health evaluated.

And last but not least, thyroid imbalance and lack of sleep often go together.  How I wish I had time to chat with you on the phone, but am doctoring on a sick animal right now on a daily basis, and barely have time to breathe.   I/we wish you well and know you will make it through this difficult time.  After all, you're receiving warning "dreams" from a most likely benevolent source.  Please keep us posted.

I'll be calling my doctors office first thing in the morning and see if I can get an appointment ASAP. I will let my doctor know that I want a full extensive checkup on my Thyroid. Don't think I've ever had it checked. Not that I know of at least.
Much Love  :-*
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Solani, P.S.

Your experience with the owl is truly amazing, and no doubt has serious meaning.  Do you feel the owl was mentally sending you the wisdom you might need when you encouinter "the father" you are not to trust?

Yes, I feel that the Great Gray Owl was definitely sending me some message of sorts. His behavior was so way out of character for what wild owls normally have. I've seen so many of these huge different types of wild owls being up here on the mountain, especially when living on Dan's farm and know that they don't just sit a few feet away from you on a branch outside your window and intently stare you straight in the eyes, even when your dog is jumping on the window and barking at it... He was sitting so close that I could almost see the individual feathers in his white "mustache" below his beak on his throat. He was a magnificent bird!!

I don't know if talking to my daughter on the phone while I was watching him, caused me not to be able to pick up on any messages, being that I was distracted. Not sure if his presence was due to "do not trust the father" or, my missing 4 hours of time. It does give me a feeling of something telling me that, "I am not alone" and I'm hoping that is a good thing and not the other way around. I'm way to tired to fight right now

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Another P.S. for Solani:

What is the source of your drinking water?  Do you know if it's fluoridated?  If fluoridated, the fluoride could be interfering with any iodine/iodide your thyroid needs, 

Drinking and cooking water I haul out here from town, since the tap water here in the house, is not suited for drinking in any way shape or form. Something wrong with the well or, the pipes but, the place is for sale so, they're not interested in doing anything about it. I checked with the people in charge of the town water and they said they do not add any fluoride to the city water. I have checked it myself and can't see any traces of fluoride. I do however have a Berkey filter that I filter all mine and my pets drinking and cooking water regardless and only drink that. I also have a machine that I can distill water in if it would be needed. I bought the Royal Berkey filter this past summer so I could bring it with me when I leave here in whatever 5th wheel I can get my hands on and not have to worry about the safety of drinking water, even if it comes from a lake or stream. I also bought the fluoride filters that I will be using on the road, since most of the time when I refill the water, it will be from these refill and dumping of tanks places.
As far as Iodine, I take sea kelp supplements daily which include the daily dose of Iodine, since I don't use the iodine salt from stores. I only use pink Himalayan salt that I buy from a trusted online source and it has no iodine in it.

Missed answering your wishing to chat on the phone. Yes, I would really have loved being able to talk to all of you girls but really understand how much it goes into working with and saving a sick animal. My love and prayers are with you as well as your sick "baby". Life is so fragile at times but so worth saving.  :-*

Much Love
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Solani I agree on the owl. to me that is not a bad omen it is likely good...

I got your private messages too and replied.
Sounds like you are on the med a little bit and glad you will be gong to the doc. True, thyroid can cause all kinds of symptoms.

I had posted a couple messages to you a few posts back, first quoting you then my replies after wards. I had a couple questions on whether you are on the red yeast rice or not.
I do (not) recommend it based on all you are going through... red yeast rice can cause same bad effects as statins on (some) people. It's just one piece of the puzzle was wondering about...
Yes the electrolytes a really good idea, in any form you can quickly get as you mentioned. I have done that too.
Well, you are in recovery mode, answer the messages/posts as you feel like it,
Prayers are with you,
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